Why?

WHY????
That 3 letter word seems to flood my thoughts quite a bit these days.  While talking to my friend a few days ago i mentioned that "why" is the prevailing question to God in the recent days and she responded "don't ask God, Why?,  ask Him, What?"  She stated that I should be asking Him "what are you trying to teach me?".   So that is what I am trying to do.  It is definitely hard because I want to know why.  On this side of heaven I may never know the answers i seek but I have my ideas and I am going to continue to try to find the blessings and lessons in everyday.
Today it occurs to me that so many aspects of our life quite possibly could be dramatically different had we never moved from Miami 6 years ago.  Our move to Clearwater changed our family forever (at least this is what I truly believe).  We attended a church that was pastored by a wise, godly man that God used to impact the coach and me forever.  i believe that the time spent in that church, school and city changed us.  We grew spiritually (I know i did),  our friendships grew,  our way of handling money changed and my appreciation for Florida and all it has to offer certainly changed.  I don't know in what way our family impacted those we came in contact with but I certainly know that we were IMPACTED greatly. I would NOT have my sewing biz and most certainly not my digitizing biz.  My biz was an answer to prayer.  It has been the means to which our family has been able to do and experience many things that otherwise we would not have be able to.  Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined that i would be doing what I do.  I am thankful for the Lord's blessing and pray that He continues to bless our family by means of our biz. 
Our move from Clearwater to NC was a hard one in some ways and amazing in others.  We were thankful for the great opportunity to attend (my children) and work (coach) at an amazing Christian School.  NRCA is like none other that i have ever seen.  The Lord has blessed the school with phenomenal facilities.  It is a convenant school that partners with parents to guide the students in the ways of the Lord.  I am so thankful for the 2 years that my children have been able to experience this amazing place.   We have learned what it means to be humble (coach did in his first year as an assistant) although be humble seemed to come easy to him.  I on the other hand had to learn from him.  I have had the opportunity to live in my dream home (size and space) even if it was only for a year.  I may never have that opportunity again.  I would love to have this amount of space again but If I never do then life will go on and I am thankful for the time I did have.

(this post was never finished and since then so much has changed.  today is march 13.  I have decided not to finish this post but wanted to post it so that i can remember what i was feeling during this time)