It has been about 2.5 months since my last entry and things have most definitely changed around here. We packed our house and closed on March 30th, moved into a corporate rental. with our things loaded on a truck and gone ahead to Florida we (i) didn't have much to do the last month or so. I don't have my machines, and have much smaller living quarters to clean and keep with that being said i have had much more time on my hands. So, what did i do, i signed up for tennis (me and the kids). Its been fun and hope to continue lessons when i get to Florida. I went to Florida to run tryouts and was quite excited to see the final teams. I am looking forward to a great year. There will be much work ahead of us but never the less I am eager.
So where am I today. I am secretly an emotional mess, i cry at the drop of a pin. When I think of how God blessed us over the last several years along our journey to clearwater and then Raleigh I am humbled. I realize all the things, and feelings that I have experienced and I am so thankful. At the same time I am so perplexed and inquisitive, I am not angry but just wish I understood. Although, I do understand this move somewhat, I know that God has a plan for our family and is going to bless us as we submit ourselves to be used as a vessel to further His kingdom. Even still, I continue to question Him. Not in an irreverent way but just in a WHY, way. I have grown to really love and enjoy so many things here in NC. I will miss some of the friends He has sent my way. I learned so much. I have learned about friends, foes, arrogance and hippocracy . I pray that the lessons i have experienced or seen others experience will forever change me.
What i learned about the people both friends and, to put it kindly, Others.
Friends: I have learned how unselfish people can be when they are your true friends. I have seen people show kindness. I have friends that have put their busy life, painful situations to be a friend. GM has a sick son yet she manages to be kind and make time to help when ever I need her. CM invited me into her life, made me feel like I was welcome. She is real, she is kind and despite a busy life she has made me feel loved. NL has been my sounding board, my friend, my rock the 1st year, her hospitality is never ending.
I WILL make time for others when they need it, I will put my selfish ambitions aside when a friend need something from me, I will be real, I will be kind.
I am praying for compassion, I am praying that the Lord will make me sensitive to that person that needs someone to welcome them, I am praying for a more selfless approach to life in general. I want to be selfless enough that I know what is going on in others lives because I am not so caught up in my own that i don't care.
OTHERS: What I will change as a result of what i learned from those that i will call "others"- Be sensitive to including others, invite their opinions, (not that I have the money but) won't try to buy others, don't show favoritism (on team), let everyone know that they are important (on team), be open to change.
As far as coaching what I want to remember is that I do this for ONLY one reason. To glorify God. He has called me to coach ms and hs girls and mentor coaches at this time in my life. So what will I do with this? I will keep Him at the center. Success isn't only measured in trophies, most important it is measured in a unit that only God can translate. I will abide in Him so that day in and day out I can be encouraged that His work is being done and cheerleading is simply the medium. I will not let the enemy penetrate and convince me that I am not good enough.
As Far as Miami, as of today my approach and response to the question "are you excited about moving" will be completely different. I will focus on the fact that this is going to be the ride of our life. This is what God has for our family right now and only great things can happen when you walk with the Lord and follow that path He has called you down. So from today on my answer is, "yes, I am excited and eager to see what God has planned for our Family". Once I arrive in Miami I will be positive, i will think on those blessings that God has given us, I will seek out the good things that Miami as to offer but more importantly I will seek out the Lord and see Him around me daily.
We are blessed that He choose our family and has given us the opportunity to be used by Him to further His kingdom. I pray that our family will continue to grow spiritually, not be come conformed to those things that I know the Lord isn't pleased with.
We have 7 days left in Raleigh, I will look for and be thankful the blessings the Lord will give us here in Raleigh and seek to work for Him in any way that he calls us to in these final days here.
Thank you Lord that you know our future and you are in control. Thank you for loving us so much that you desire to give us what is best.
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